Well, i had finally made up my mind today..
I'm goin to buy Nokia N95..
2 Gb de....
Cost me around RM1400++
Now, i got RM700 oledi...
Plus mummy sponsor me RM50(only)...
Third aunty, RM50(only)...
And my another aunty, RM200...
So, i now got RM1000...
RM400++ to goo...
Jia you...
I muz get my phone in August...
So, it will be very very soonnnn.....

I'm in a bad mood today...
So, nitez.....

Wah!!!
I had finally finished typing all the tender for my mum...
It's a whole pile of document =.=
Made my day so tired :-S
I was asked by her to do tat once I reached home around 4p.m.
Ok, forget bout it liao...

My bee hun today very very nice....
They loved it :-P
Vincent don even believe tat I was the one cooking it...
Hahaha....
Well, i promised TYT to cook for her this Sat...
And she said don cook for K...
So... Okies :-)
lalala....
She is now watching movie with her "beloved"..
hahaha...
lolx...

K.. Kinda tired now...
So.....
GOOD NITE!!!

Well, Im kinda happy today :-)
Cos i got a very very good news last nite...
It was tat..
Some of the SOT's students tat came last trip will be coming again in da upcoming trip!!!
Yeah!!!
Especially, L, F, and K....
But K cannot comfirm yet...
We, i will be looking forward to meet u guys again:-)
Hehe...

And, tomolo is my turn to cook....
I will be bringing fried bee hun to school...
Cos we used to cook by turn...
Among me, Angelina, Penny n Vincent!!!
They all cooked oledi...
So, tomolo will be my turn:-)
Then, we will be eating together during our recess time...
So, i have to sleep early..
Nitez...

AHHHH.......
No time to update my blog le.....
Zombie ask me to sleep le..

Well, i had juz finished viewing all the photos took by Leslie on the last SOT mission trip..
And I'm extremely missing all of them rite now!!!!!!!

Really hope to see u guys again..
Sobs....

Well....
Friday is still a busy day in my life...
After school, i went for lunch with Angelina n Vincent...
Untill 1 sth, then they pick me go tuition....
Tuition.. Tuition.. Tuition..
Tuition until 5pm..
Then, tuition again from 7pm until 9.30pm...
Sienz...
My life was full of tuitioning...
Around 9sth, my aunty who come from Miri, called me..
She's now in Kuching...
Then she ask me whether i have taken my dinner o not...
Then i told her not yet lo...
So, my aunty who picked me home juz now sent me to my grandma house(which is juz behind my house)...
When i reached there, i tot got some great food for me...
But, there were juz mee sua without any meat but only the soup...
Over there, they asked me lots of questions...
Ask me wad i wan to do after SPM?
Study?
Working?
Or wadever...
I told them I wan to take Multimedia, IT, n bla bla bla...
But, all those courses were not encouraged by my mum..
When i ask my mum last time, she juz said...
This one, no future...
This one, no job...
And bla bla bla..
So, i juz told my mum to register wadever course she want me to take, i juz go n attend the classes..
Tats wad i currently can do rite now...
As she loves to plan for me toooo much...
Well, back to the dining table...
My aunty from Miri ask me whether am i free o not tomolo nite...
I told her, nope...
I'll be goin to church...
But she said tat they will be goin for big meal...
I was juz like... Ok... Enjoy urself then...
Again, she asked me wad are the main purpose of their meal..
Definitely, i juz say.. NO...
Then, they told me tat MY DAD WAS BACK!!!!
Oh my goodness...
Y do he wan to come back?
I tot he was dead oledi...
Y do he wan to come back again???
He always come back so suddenly n "disrupt" my life...
Well, i treat tat his presence in my life is an disruption...
YES, IT IS AN DISRUPTION!!!!
In my mind, there is no LOVE in u but only hatred!!!
I hate u!!
I hate u!!
I hate u!!
I really don wish to see you n pls leave this town as soon as possible...
Please!!!
Pls go away!!!
I don wan my life to be disrupted again....

I'm very confusing rite now..
I become blur blur after got tat bad news...
But i knew tat his family's members were happy...
Maybe including my mum...
There will be class on tomolo...
And I'm goin to church after tat...
But now, i din even get prepared yet...
Still blogging here...
Anyway, i think I cant sleep tonite le....
So....
Sienz...
Well, there's still lots of things haven being done by me...
Especially coming up de CHCC exhibition..
So, i have to go now..
Bye.....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well...
Today is an unpleasant day for me...
After school today, i went for exam replacement for BM...
I was in an air-con room from 2.30pm till 7.00pm...
It was about 4.30 hours....
:-S
Damn tired for the exam cos it's quite difficult...
I even leaved some Qs blank!!!
Hehe...
Vincent promised to pick me up after tat...
But, he suddenly told me tat he don have car cos his's dad(crazy ppl) need to use da car...
I called my mum after tat...
I asked her,"Where r u?"..
She replied,"At home ler.."
Then i ask her whether can pick me up o not?
But she scolded me n bla bla bla...
Then i juz said "Ntg liao!"
The call was hanged....
She actually donno tat my fren cant pick me at last...

Then, i went to nk network for my dinner...
After tat, i decided to walk home...
Can u imagine tat i walked home from Jalan Keretapi to Sungai Maong?
N it was about to rain tat time...
Without wasting much time, i walked home quickly...

While on da way home, it finally rain...
After a while, i met my aunty from MIRI...
It juz so "xue" to meet her there...
She ask me y didn't i bring an umbrealla...
The she asked me to jin her with her fren for dinner...
N she pick me home!!!
Yeah....
But during tat time, my mind was like... Die lor...

When my mum came back juz now, i told my mum the truth..
And she laughed...
Means...
Everything was OK liao lo...
Hehehe...
Well, it jus a funny day..
lol

These few days were rather a bit "good"..
But there were still some pain behind =S
Sienz ar............
I hate this kind of feeling....

Luckilly God asked to to control my self emotion...

Ok..
No mood to update more bout it le...
Bye....



















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Well...
The connection today was rather a bit better compared to last nite:-)
So, I'm goin to start from Sunday morning....
I woke up at 8am...
Start to tidy up my study table cos Angelina n Penny coming to my hse 4 study...
But Angel was late for more than an hour:-S
Then study study study...
Till 11.30 then we stopped n go on9...
Till 12pm...
Vincent came n pick us...
Then we went to pizza junction...
And a person i hate join us without any invitation!!!
Hate it!!!
Sienz...
But nevermind...
His car cannot start after our meal...
Hahaha....

After tat, we went to church together...
And they also helped in da CHCC...
Busy busy till 5.15pm, stopped n ready for nite service...
It was a nice servic3...

After service, went for supper with ya ting n jamie..
They were really siao!!




















Anyway, it was a happy day with hurt behind///
:-|

Haiz...
I had finally finish my things...
It were all about next week de exhibition...
Hope my work will be good :-)
Really really an exhausted day~~

Well, after overall...
It was a good day...
A happy day...
But there was still some pains behind the happiness....
But anyway, i will live out my life...

My classmate, Angelina, had finally came to my church!!!
And oso Vincent~~
I was sooooo happy n excited....
I had actually invited Angel to my church since I was in Form 2...
But, she could only come tonite...
Anyway, she finally came!!! :-)
But, after some kind of problems...
She had to leave at 8.45pm...
N i followed her...
Hehehe....
This was the 1st time I "ponteng" church service le...
Hahaha....


Well, i have to sleep now...
Cos i have to go church tomolo....
Sooooooooooooooo many things to do :-S
Sienz...
But anyway, it was all for GOD's Kingdom :-)


One sad thing to announce, Jiat was back to Aussie..
Miss her sooooo much :'-(
U muz also miss me yea....
Gonna see u again this year end :-(
If tat time i oledi sat my SPM, then we muz really really go makan besar!!!
This time really have to be big big meal:-)
Hehe...

Arghh~~~
I cant sign in my msn today...
It really sucks lah~~
Haiz...
I seems like cant live without msn...
MSN, I NEED YOU!!!
Hehe.. lolx]

Well...
My life seems like getting busier n busier...
Well...
I had promised my frens to took part in a drama competition for my school...
It's a buddha concert actually...
But, I'm juz goin there for the sake of ''COMPETITION"...
So, i think i was okay..
Hehe...
I oso promised myself tat practice will be done on every Saturday morning~~
For bout 3 hours per week...

Besides, me n my frens had planned to do a study group this coming Sunday at my house...
But, i received a call juz now...
I was called to church this Sunday to do some sort of decoration for our coming exhibition...
So, now..
I have to call off the study group lo...
But, i oso cant comfirm whether i can go to church o not this Sunday...
Cos of my mum~~~
Sienz...
Hope tat there will be no problems...
Haiz...
Soooo tired...

Gonna sleep now...
There will be practice tomolo..
See yea all...
Byez...

Wow!!
I have not been update my blog for long long time le~~
So, where shd i start leh?
Er...
Start frm Sunday lor...

Last Sunday was our station game lo...
It was successful...
N i was oso damn tired....
I was the MC for tat day too....
So, now many ppl know me liao:-)
Hehex...
After the station game, we stayed back n wash the whole school...
Boys n gals toilet :-(
So smelly ar!!
N i only able to reach home around 4.30pm..
As i oso woke up around 5.30am ta morning...
But anyway, it was really a successful one..
:-)
N now, i still keep in touch with some of the participants lo..
Tru msn n frenster...
Some of them really very funny lo...
Had fun time with them on9...
Hehe..

Er...
Wad else sud i blog hor??
OHH YEAH!!!
I chat with Rev. Stephen Goh juz now!!!
Walau eh, 1st time chat with pastor leh..
Hehehe...

Ok..
I think tats all i wanna blog about..
So tired liao...
Gonna tuition 4 da whole day tomolo :-(
Haiz..
So sad....
Byez..
Nitezz...

Announcement~~

There is a great announcement...
I'm goin to buy a new handphone soon~~
So, is there got anyone who wan to sponsor me?
Little bit oso can~~
RM50??
RM100??
Any amount will do...

Interested?
Kindly call me at 016-809xxxx...
Or email me at siang_wilson@msn.com...
Thanks~~~

hahaha...
i love my day...
tats all..
bye..

Well...
My day was tired today...
Tuition for the whole day :-(
Damn so tired..
Gonna sleep soon...

And there will be a station in my school this coming Sunday...
So, i will be very tired tomolo...
Therefore, there will be no update in my blog tomolo:-)
Haha..

Ok..
Having school tomolo..
Nitez...

哭也是一天...
笑也是一天...
无论是开心或伤心也是要过日子...
为什么不要开开心心过完我们的下半辈子呢???

Got this quote from my junior's water bottle...
Its quite true...
Y don we live happily as we need to live in this world till we die??

Hahaha...
I sud learn sth from this...

While i was having my break inmy school this morning, suddenly got 2 ex-seniors came into my class n look for me...
Had some chat...
And i think they were having their life well in KL n Australia...
N they had changed a lotzz....
Haiz....
Look cooler n prettier =)
Hahah...

LOLX...
I found tat i had addicted to the song, God Of My Forever...
I have to listen to this song everyday...
Once i have my free time, i will listen to this =)

Ok.. Kinda tired now..
Gonna sleep soon..
Byez...

Arghh~~~
It was over~~
Once again, congratulations tat u managed to cancel my activity with my frens~~
And i could only managed to cut myself for 3 times...
Cos someone is "preaching" to me online :-)
Haha..
Thanks anyway~~

I forced myslef to sleep juz now..
N i only managed to wake up around 10sth~~

I really hate my CG so much~~
I hate it...
U had disappointed me so much~~
I said tat i hate this CG since long time ago!!!
Y do church wan us to suffer in da CG???
Why??!!!

So, I'm goin to announce tat I AM FREE FROM ANY CELL...
I don wan to be in any cell group for temporary es[ecially my current CG...
I hate it!!!
Arghhh~~~~~~~~~~
And,
I'm not goin to study anymore~~
I will definitely be free from my studies :-)
My job to school is the same as the job i go to church~~
It is.... PLAY:-)
Yeah~~~

I HATE MY MUM!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE HER!!!!!!
SHE ACTUALLY DO SO MANY BAD THINGS BEHIND ME!!!!!!!!!
SHE IS ACTUALLY THE ONE TAT I SUD ANGRY AT O HATE AT!!!!!!!!!!!

SHE ACTUALLY CALLED MY LEADER N ASKED HIM DON INVITE ME JOIN ANY ACTIVITY THEY HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
N HE JUZ TOLD ME JUZ NOW!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE SUCKS IN THIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WONT SAY MUCH AT HERE RITE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAD I WAN TO DO NOW IS CUT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BYE BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!











JESUS, U'RE NOT MY SUPERHERO, NOT MY STARS, NOT MY BESTFREN!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS MEANS TAT SOME1 SAID I GO CHURCH PLAY IS STH TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!




















IM SO TIRED LIVING IN THIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God of my forever...

Well, i go n see da doctor juz now~~
Actually he's a pharmacist..
Regarding my skin problems~~
And he gave me 5 type of cream:-S
Which cost me RM46...
Have to apply some in da morning n some in da evening:-S
Which made me so confused:-S
Anyway, my skin will getting better after finished apply all those cream :-)

After tat, me n my mum went to Padawan Fest at MJC...
Got food fair, fun fair n trade fair...
Only managed to eat some..
Fishball...
Taiwan sausage..
Tats all :-(

My life is getting more n more boring n stress...
God, gimme strength!!!

She finally unblocked me!!!
Thanks, Kevin~~



I'm so damn tired now~~
Sleep~~~
zzzZZZ~~~
Bye~~

My Sunday~~

Well, today is a different sunday for me~~
Which is full of events...

Woke up around 10sth...
Then i go to my grandma house..
Cos my aunty with her husband came frm Miri~~
After my breakfast at her hse, then me n my uncle go to nearby coffee shop for chicken rice around 12...
Then, pick my grandma n my aunty go 4 facial for 2 hours..
During tat time, we go Boulevards shopping n had our hightea at Pizza Hut...
Then, we go n pick them...
After pick them up, they said they wan 2 go Boulevard..
So, we went there again:-S
Went for shopping n she got me 2 new T-shirts:-)

After tat, we had our dinner at the food court downstairs~~
And bought many things in da hypermarket~~
Then, go home...

In da afternoon, she gave me RM50..
LOLXX...
So, im having my extra pocket money:-)
Tats all for my day~
So tired now...
zzzZZZZ~~~

GOD OF MY FOREVER by City Harvest Church

God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me over
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever and forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever and forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for you has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

Well, i was happy today:)
We all had a great service~~
With saxophone~~
Wow!!
He was really great...

And went for supper with J, J n S after tat..
Sry~~
I donno whether sud i put the full name:-)
Hahaha~~~
Shhhhh~~~~
LOLX~~~
Anyway, J&J, thanks for the drink n my Gu Bah Mee...
:-)

And i din lead the game today:-)
Its good:-)
So tat they can see new face..
LOLX...
We muz improve our CHCC!!!
Jia you!!!
Gambateh~~~
:-)

Suddenly i love this song so much..
GOD OF MY FOREVER~~~
I din even realise tat i actually got it..
And i still go ask fom Kevin..
LOLX..
Thanks a lot yea:-)
Yeah, He is my God for forever..
Ntg are better than u:-)

Well, someone said tat I'm goin to church only with the purpose of "PLAY"..
Am I??
'She' said i only go n see ppl only...
N i act so rude in church...
Am i tat bad?
Am I?
Who shd i go church n see?
=.=

I AM RUDE N CHILDISH IN CHURCH~~
N many ppl juz bear with my attitude becos they knew about my background?
Wad background do u refer to?
Father-less?
Well, i knew tat u have a good father...
N I'm not..
I grew in a family without father..
I knew it!!
Do u juz wan to mean tat i was leak of house education?
Or "father's education"?

I had do my best oledi.. I think~
But, no matter how ppl treat me?
Good o bad~~
I STILL DON WAN PPL TO FACE ME WITH WAD KIND OF BACKGROUND I HAD!!!
I don wan..
If u wan to treat me with the background i have, then i would juz wan u to treat me BAD...
I don have a good background...
Well, i cant bear it..
Stop it!!!
U win~~








Again, i remembered tat wad God had told me:
"Don build security on ppl, build it on GOD!!!"
I will never forget this~
Thanks GOD!!
Love u forever~
I will never forget it~~

Ahhhh!!!
I found out tat someone blocked me actually..
:'(
Ahhhh!!!
Why ler? Tell me why??
Wad had i did wrongly?
:-(
It hurts tho~~
And many ppl don reply my msn:-(
All those newly-added frens~~
Ahh...
Is there got sth to do with my attitude?
Or ppl juz don like me??
Sienz...
Don chat don chat la..
Y wan 2 block?
Haiz...
AHHHH~~~~
Cant stand to shout out loud...
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
:-(
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But, GOD told me...
Don build security on ppl, build it on HIM..
So, i shd build my security on my Great Big Daddy God:-)
I knew tat u will be with me whenever i am...
U will always be my side..
No matter I'm sad or happy..
U will always be with me...
Looking at me..
Protecting me..
Ohh God, pls continue to guide me:-)
I love u:-)
Pls be with me.. Don leave me...

Well... I'm gonna sum up my day...
When i was in school this morning, Randall, my classmate, suddenly came n call me Big Baby..
I was like 'Uh-huh?'..
Haha.. He told me tat he had read my blog...
N he commented my blog was kinda bored compared to somebody else..
I was little sad..
But, i really dunno how to update it...
Anyway, i will always try to update it :-)

Since God talked to me last week...
2 things came into my mind n i had thought about it these few days...
First, i wan to be a cell group helper by 18 o 19 years old..
Second, i want to keep fit@ on diet!!!
Maybe tats wad those SOT's students inspired me...
Once i reached both of my target, i will start to plan for futhermore...
Jia you!!!
Btw, wad shd i do now to become a cell group helper?
P/s: For those leaders who are reading this, do gimme so tips through da comments box... Thanks!

I muz reach my target!!
Towards God's destiny!!!
Halleluyah!!!